To MellowYellow

Dear you,

You came at my weakest. You were with me at the time when I was so down. You’re words were my source of strength and you served as my reason to smile. You deserve my biggest thanks.

I know I’ve not been the best advisee. I know I haven’t been treating you the way you should be. I’m sorry.

If you could’ve met me in a different place, in a different time, you’d probably think that I’m not that bad and that there’s a trace of maturity in this silly head of mine somewhere too. If only I wasn’t this vulnerable. If only I was myself these days.

I want you to know me as me, not the helpless girl who cries whenever you talk to her on the phone. Not even the melodramatic person that you perceive of me. I want you to meet bang. But unless you erase every single notion you have about me, unless you start from zero and get to know me again, you’ll never know who I really am.

I’m sorry if this may sound like I’ve been untrue to you. It’s just that, I couldn’t be myself at the time you met me. I couldn’t risk being myself. I didn’t trust myself enough to handle that kind of pain. I hope you understand.

You were a good friend. And I will never forget you. Someday, God will repay you for all the things you did for me. I hope we can still be friends.

Stay sweet.

Bang