wanted: bestfriend

I'm jealous of two women right now. Two.

I'm jealous of her because she's his bestfriend and I'm jealous of the other because of the same reason.

I could've been one of those two faces. I was one of those two women. But made a decision so I could be the other. But I am, still, not. And I think I will never be.

"Selfish or Selfless?" That was Jvee talking.

If only I could be selfish so I could be one of those two women (at last or again?).

"You're in the losing end(s)." Jvee again.

Selfish...i might lose him...selfless....i might lose myself.

"Whatever you do, question is, will he(?) have you?" Jvee.

He's right. Fuck. Rejection on both sides.