To Jvee

"This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy." *Susan Polis Schutz*

"Take the power to make your life happy."...or miserable....

Did I already tell you about the book I'm reading right now? It's about a gathering after this guy's funeral. It's about people talking about his life. Some narrated a very evil side of him. Some told stories about how charming and funny he was. Some tried to explain why he died.

hmm..makes me think of death. If you die Jvee, because of this, (bad phrasing but can't think of any other way to say it), I won't tell people how close we were and how you inspired me and how brilliant your thoughts were. I won't say how your ideas seemed to run so deep they touched my heart. I won't tell them how I enjoyed talking toyou...arguing even. I won't tell them I wish you're still here...very much alive.

I'll tell them you're stubborn as hell and that you never listened. I'll give you the favor of telling everyone that you died because you chose to be miserable...because you were too loyal for your own good...and because you thought you could never find anyone else who'd even come close to her qualities. I'd tell everyone that you never let go and that you didn't even try. I'd tell them how stupid and pessimistic you were in believing that the pain you're feeling is better than the "alternative".

I'll tell them you died because of your own chosen fate.

simone