One Dawn with Jvee

V: If this ever ends, I'll never love again.


J: And make yourself suffer? Brilliant!


V: What did I do wrong this time? Maybe I was soffucating him. Maybe I really am high-maintenance. Maybe I've been pushing him away all this time.


J: Stop making sense out of his actions. Stop justifying.


V: I wish I didn't love him this much so I won't hurt this much.


J: Listen! The only thing that's hurting you now is the fact that you have a big heart. If he cannot accept the love you have for him then that is not your problem. You have a big heart Simone. That's not a crime.


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V: When is pride just? If I leave to see if he's not going to let me go, if I try avoid conversation
to see if he's not going to stop fighting for me, if I try to find out if he loves me at all, is that
pride? And if it is, is it just?


J: Pride is just only when it is coupled with self-sacrifice. If your pride leads you to
contemptuous actions, then it will be your downfall.


V: "Pride and self-sacrifice" is an oxymoron. Or is that what you really mean?


J: Yes, because pride is about as useful as your appendix. Use it too often, it will bursst and
poison you from the inside.


V: I just want to preserve what left of me. Is that so wrong?


J: If you're doing it to preserve your dignity, fine. But if you're doing it just to hurt him, then
it's not okay.


V: What if by preserving my dignity, I hurt him too?


J: Then, it's purely selfish. It will lead to ruin. But don't make me stop you. Make your own
mistake and learn from it the hard way.


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thanks, jvee.