rebound

I'm stuck.

I don't wanna go anywhere. I just want to stay here...with him. But I don't want to stand in between what could be fate. I may be the only thing that's keeping you two apart. I may be the unnatural distraction that inhibits his longing for you. I may be the unwanted addition in this math.

I just want to stay here with him. But as I discover your plea for his approval yet again, my soul remains restless. I feel your pain. And even if I don't know you, I don't want you to get hurt. I am the only one standing in the way. I cannot fathom happiness with him if that will mean your loneliness.

You love him. And yes, I know he loves you. My role in this circumstance poses the most ambiguity. I'd like to think he needs me. But until when? Until he finds you again? I'd like to think you don't need him. But until when? Until you realize you do? When's that? When i realize I need him too?

Why did you have to let him go? Why did you have to let him meet me?

I'm stuck...between two people who are passionately in love with each other...separated by personal differences, blinded by the vicariousness of the world.

I'm stuck...because I allow myself to be. I don't want to leave. I just want to be here with him. I'm sorry. I cannot give him up for you just yet. I know he is yours. and he will be..again. But you see, he makes me happy now. He makes me laugh. he makes my sadness go away. I need him more than you do right now.

I'm stuck and I'm sorry.