the 29th of february

Dear God,

I'm writing this down instead of mouthing it through prayer, hoping that I'd do a better job in communicating these things I want to tell You. Lord, I hope you read blogs too.

I haven't talked to You for so long. It has been too long, I think I forgot how it feels to talk to You. I've been away for so long, I think I forgot how it feels being near. All I know now, is that there is this really big hole in my heart and I can't seem to fill it up with anything to get better.

Lord, You have gifted me with strength and courage not a lot of ladies my age have been given. And I honestly believe, that you made me this way because you know I will be through a lot of things. Lord, I know this is so childish to say, but can I just have less strength and courage and just have an easier life? Kung minsan po kasi Panginoon, nahihirapan na po ako. Nahihirapan po talaga ako.

Father, I do not have any right to request for anything...especially now...now that I'm rebellious, now that I'm far away. But with all my heart, I beg you Lord, will You hug me tight while I sleep tonight? Please? Please po?

-Simone