hmm...I've experienced a lot this year. So far, this is the most difficult year i've experienced in my 20 years of existence. A lot of people left my life and a lot gave me heartaches and pain. Honestly, I can only name three reasons why I shouldn't regret not dying in the year 2004. Other than those three, 2005 has left me with almost nothing to be thankful for.
Well, at least the worst is over. Nothing else can make me weak, not after what I've already gone through. They say life has its ups and down. I've surely went through the toughest downs already, 2006 can't be that bad.
Let's leave out the part about my gifts for my friends though. ahaha! It's still a long way before those gifts cease to be non-existent. So no, let's not talk about gifts. =)
Hmm...I don't think it's good to talk about my plans for christmas as well. My brain is still on my thesis. So no, let's not talk about christmas plans. =)
How about my wishlist? Well, everybody knows it anyway. I think posting it for a week in my friendster account is enough already. So no, let's not talk about my christmas wishlist. =)
Is santa clause ok to talk about? Nope, I stopped believing in those stuff a long ago. So no, let's not talk about reindeers and sleigh bells and christmas trees and stars and well...the like. =)
Falalalala...lalalala! *hums*
Christmas carols? hmm...I'm actually gunna sing some at the 18th and I literally have to go through major voice lessons just so I can sing'em right. And honestly, I don't wanna talk about do-re-mi yet. So no, no to christmas carols. =)
Noche Buena? I still haven't eaten dinner yet and I don't wanna drool infront of all these people here at the thought of noche buena. So no, let's not talk about noche buena...yet. =)
Hmmm...that leaves us with ummm...nothing much really.
So are we still gunna talk about christmas? Nah! Let's leave that to the rest of the world. =)
The other sunday as with the previous sundays for the past two years, I did nothing but bum around the house with a book by Dan Brown, ate when it was meal time and slept until my head was ready to explode. Nope, I had no plan of going to church.
And then just yesterday, I attended three masses. Imagine that!
Sometimes, I suprise myself.
When I joined the choir, I really felt imtimidated with the old members. Everybody knew how to read notes and everybody sang well. Except me of course. Whole notes and G-clefs are really not my thing. So poor me.
And then just yesterday, I hit the highest possible note an alto can sing. I didn't lose my tune and I ended up getting invited to sing alto for two other choral groups. Yey me!
Sometimes, I surprise myself.
And then, there are some days when my hair doesn't seem to look right and my skin looks pale and my eyes? don't ask! It's the end of the world!
But then again, there are also some days, not quite rare but not frequent either, when my eyes get fixated on this girl's face who looks really charming with her sweet smile and expressive eyes. And then when I look closer, I realize that I'm just looking at my reflection. It's me all along. hahaha!
just came home from choir practice.stop.I'm so tired.stop.My body's ready to collapse.stop.My brain's killing me.stop.I can't think right coz a lot of things are in my head.stop.I wanna get some sleep.stop.I wanna get these thoughts out of my stupid brain.stop.I just wanna have peace of mind.stop.But I can't.stop.These thoughts won't let me.stop.I can't sleep coz I know they will still be in my dreams.stop.I can't get some rest with this array of unwanted brain activities.stop.I can't sleep.stop.I can't stop.stop.I want to though.stop.I want to stop.stop.Stop.stop.Grrr.stop.Oh shut up.stop.I said shut up.stop.Just go away.stop.Just please.stop.please.stop.stop please.stop.stop it.stop.STOP IT!stop.
